We could watch the sunset, with our toes in the sand, our cup noodles and candles <3
Hello, I've so many things to say.
Today was such a horrible shitty day.
I swear, I felt like taking a bus,
to east coast park and just lie on the beach,
listen to the sound of waves and feel the breeze.
I felt liek crying everything out,
hoping I'll feel better,
but then nowadays, I just tear.
So many many things happened.
don't wanna elaborate,
my life's like I-don't-know-what,
a roller coaster ride?
I'm in no mood for CNY,
I'm looking forward to it,
cause there is no school.
I'm no looking forward to hongbaos or what.
Cause my other grandma's in hospital.
And I'm damn sad over everything that has happened.
I feel like a dead person,
I want to be void of emotions,
so I will not get hurt,
I'm not some person whom you place beside you,
to take somebody's place,
remember that.
I doubt you'll see it.
I dislike being the 'reserve'
I don't know what you are thinking at times,
your intentions scares me,
I'm serious.
Today after Np,
I went to canteen,
hoping to see someone to talk to,
Alvina's having track,
Jiale went home,
Jinle and Bryna or nowhere to be found,
squadmates are playing bball.
Kimberly went somewhere.
Weiying's having netball.
And I lost my wallet,
I'm damn sad about it,
I just bought it,
just made my ez link card,
and my mom says she's not gonna sponsor a single cent,
anymore.
Inside got teh card Eliz gave me,
My passport photos.
I value my wallet more that handphone.
I'm feeling like shit now,
I still have to do the project,
and my cramps are really killing me.
And, I don't really care,
what you all think anymore,
you don't really understand do you?
And half my school work is not done.
I have four test just after CNY,
like, oh man,
shittt.
Now, wanshui just emailed me about some captain's ball competition,
and I have to send a team,
Yaf is sending a team,
and they even got Cephas to train them,
and sending in one team costs the church 100 bucks.
Well, I think the girls are most probably not interested,
I've asked them last week.
I really don't want to care anymore.
Kimberly posted something for me.
http://savethelastdancekimmie.blogspot.comIt's so sweet.
Dearest honey,
I want to give up the biggest hug ever,
I want to watch the sunset together,
I want to just spend time with you.
I missed you.
I've been thinking about you the whole day,
wishing that if only you're in 3a2,
how I've missed those 2a2 days,
when you are just at most on the other side,
of a tiny class,
where I could just scream, KIMBERLY!
I missed you,
I missed talking crap with you,
our ten weird friends,
two flew turn,
heavenstyle fighting,
I missed all that.
You're making me emo,
but I don't care too,
I just you to know,
that I've missed you lots and lots.
Sometimes, at night,
when I cannot sleep,
I'll wonder, how are you,
what are you doing,
are you happy or sad,
how's school for you,
then I'll imagine your what your answers will be,
then I'll fall asleep,
wondering if you are okay.
Waking up the next morning,
to another tiring and shitty day in school.
Anytime, day or night,
don't care if it's wrong or right,
I'm still on your side,
even when the others let you down,
I'll be there.
I missed all those times together,
when life's seems so carefree,
compared to now.
I don't care what the others think,
I missed you.
You and Jinle,
are the the people,
that came closest to seeing the real me,
inside of the Claire Lim Yi Xin,
everybody knows.
<3
The primary school teachers sucks now.
One of them scolded my mom.
'You've dropped this beating heart onto the cold hard floor,
again.
We could watch the sunset, with our toes in the sand, our cup noodles and candles <3